I have decided to post another entry for my blog for no reason at all. To start I am so damn busy with my project namely our very famous subject Applied Project (CSPROJ2). We only got 74 hours to finish everything. I have an internet connection in my laptop so I decided to check out friendster. I check my list and decided to read on the testimonials of someone. I know for a fact that I can live without that person but the feeling still remains and that it kills me whenever I remember it. I feel kinda stupid, I blame myself for reading that friendster of someone. I really ask myself right now "Why did I bother to do that?" I have tons of things to do yet I find myself a chance to read that thing that causes me now to be depress should I say anxious.

Why did I bother to loved someone who will not leave me in return. Why would I bother to ask for more when all that the person could give me is friendship nothing more nothing less. Why am I sad reading those testimonials for that person? Why is that person still have a part of my heart when I knew from the fact that I dont loved that person anymore. Ain't I? Why do I still continue to loved that person aside from the that I can not get what I need from that person? Why do I bother doing stupid stuff like this? Writing on my blog in order for me to let my feelings out. I really wish this works out. I want to remove this emptiness inside of me. I wanted to be fair, open for the fact that I cant have all the things I want.

Why can't I learn to let go of the things which is not mine?

Am I that selfish?

Or I just really loved that person so much?