That is what I feel right now I just dont know how to deal with it, I can still remember the unknown private message sent to me in my friendster that makes me feel worthless. Makes me feel walang kwenta and makes me feel that I am a salot. I am fully aware that all of my friends accept me as what I am but I cant get it off in my mind that I look bad to other people. It makes me feel that being like this is bad. Ayokong may nasasaktan akong tao di ko talaga sinasadya and I really don’t know how I offend him or her. My friend told me not to care about it but I still cant because I know iisang mundo ginagalawan namin. I lived with them in this world so I have to deal with them. Plus the fact that I really dont know what I did to whoever that person was.

Tapos yung taong gusto ko na kalimutan ngayon pa nagparamdam (Nagtext sya sakin ngayon) kung kailan buo na sa isip ko na dapat ko na kalimutan kung ano nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Halu-halo na talaga, ang gulu-gulo na.

Gusto ko na mawala, maglaho ng walang naiiwang kahit isang bakas na nabuhay ako. Nalilito pa rin ako hanggang ngayon mali ba na ito ang pinili ko for me at kasalanan ban a maing ganito ako. A while ago nakausap ko sila fudge, mj and bribs about me. I know they just want what is best for me pero ayoko pa sa ngayon magdecide di pa ako readyand naprepressure ako kasi parang minamadali nila ako pero Im not sayin na mali ang ginagawa nila for me.Ayoko lang is yung minamadali nila ako ng husto. I dont want to do anything na mapipilitan lang akong gawin kasi sinabi sakin na gawin ko ito kasi ito yun tama kasi ito ang tanggap ng mga tao.

Kasalanan ba maging ganito ako? Wala naman akong ginagawang masama and so far wala akong tinatapakang tao. I have chosen this kasi dito ako maligaya, Malaya kong naipapahayag ang sarili ko. Sabi ni bribs my choice is an act of being selfish which was agreed upon by mj. Lahat ng tao hinahangad what is good for them, Masama bang maghangad ako ng isang bagay na ikaliligaya ko rin?